No? The Answer Is No? (Notes from my personal Journal)

Day 1 of the @YouVersion Plan “When God Says No”. Link for plan:

Here is what I read for today, with my personal notes in italics:  


Walking Forward in Fath

Walking?! I wish! O.k. metephorically walking, i can do that. Let me read on…

I’ve been there. I’ve prayed on my knees until the carpet permanently imprints its knobby pattern in my skin. I’ve cried out with my face to the floor, begging God to give me the miracle.

And then. And then. And then.

The “no” hit me with the breaking force of a hurricane, and there I was. Stranded on a path I didn’t recognize, headed down a road I didn’t ask to journey.

Oh yeah, I’m familiar with hurricanes. I’m 51 and have lived most of my life in FL. I can identify with that, waiting for the storm to hit, pass & then recover from it. I also remember what it’s like trying to stand when my feet have fallen asleep & now, well now, I can rarely stand at all, ever. Many times I am in pain just laying here & I cry, dear Lord, this isn’t me. I’ve always been active. However, accidents happen & now I need help accepting the results of that crash…Perminant nerve damage in my spin, partial paralysis. I’ll read on:

The paralyzing thoughts came, like Job’s friends, to say, “Why are you here? What did you do wrong?”

But, I believe the gospel of Jesus Christ. And I believe Paul when he writes that “affliction produces endurance, endurance produces proven character, and proven character produces hope.”

I believe too.

So, I get up. I shake my frozen legs. And with the power that comes from Christ alone, I take an aching step forward down this strange path. 

For me this is literal but also figurative as I stuggle with “paralyzing thoughts”. I recall Romans 8, read it again & 

let God be God. 

He literally has my back, my spin, my guts, and most importantly, my soul in His hands. He helps me see beyond the temporary things, situations & circumstances. I read on:

The farther I walk, the easier it becomes because my muscles grow stronger than I knew they could. At times, I still have to dig in and scale the mountainside, but the view from where I stand is lovelier now than it ever was on the easy path.

God is with us. Right here, right now. I surrender to the reality that my physical hurting, pain & all of our problems are no indication of His presence. He never leaves us. As a matter of fact, when we encounter various trial, temptations, trouble & anguish we either search harder for Him or push Him away in anger but He is always A wireless call away. In more than a click of a mouse He is here.

 This written plan for today comes with a short audio…


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When all is said & done I know I can rely on God & take Him at His word:

Todays Verses: Romans 5:1‭-‬11 NIV

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.  

You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. 

Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.  

Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him!

 For if, while we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! 

Not only is this so, but we also boast in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.

Romans 5:1‭-‬11 NIV

Glory to God, beetle


This reminds me of another, much shorter, post I wrote:👉 And God Said No 👈◀click those words for that devoted thought.

Test, Trials & Exams

No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
1 Corinthians 10:13 NIV

Jesus told us in this life we’ll have trials, temptations & hard times; but, to be of good cheer because He overcame this world and if we put our trust, out lives, in His hands we too will overcome this world.

The Psalmist, in prayer, asked God to examine his heart. 

For me life isn’t about the struggles and how we feel bullied & beat up at times, it is about how we deal with those trying times. 

When pushed to the edge I just have to hold on tighter to my faith in CHRIST. May you seek, find & cling to this same Living hope found in Jesus.

For Christ sake, beetle

Going To God Only

Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me, and know my concerns,
Psalms 139:23 MEV

Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:

Psalms 139:23 KJV

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.

Psalms 139:23 NLT

This verse takes me back to a short allegorical story I wrote, ‘THE MAZE” 

The Maze

I woke up one day and heard a voice saying,
“You HAVE to get past the maze to make it to a better place.”
For years I wandered in this huge maze between here and heaven. I was told that there is only one way to get to the very end, “you must get past the maze or die in the maze, forever lost.”

One day, finally, I looked up and heard a voice and saw a hand reaching down.

The voice called, “I am the way, the truth and the life, no one gets to the end, where my Father is, but through me (Jn. 14:6).”
I went to grab His hand but as I extended mine HE PULLED ME UP (Jude:22-23 Ps. 18:16-17).
Once on top of the walls of the maze I looked back down and realized what I was just saved from.

I heard Him say, “Follow Me, my name is Jesus.”

I followed His steps as He walked across the top edges of this huge labyrinth. I could see Heaven from where we were but then

I stopped and said, “Wait, we can do this?”

Jesus smiled and answered, “With me all things are possible (Mt. 19:26).”

“But Lord, I thought we had to go through that maze and find our own way. I thought that it was up to us to find out if the arrows on the ground and the sign posts on the wall were right. I thought we had to follow the others who said they knew the way and maybe even run into a few dead ends or even a few walls. I was under the impression that…”

“Hush”, He interrupted, “Do you want to do it your way or mine?” (Is. 55:8-11)

With a smile I answered, “You know my heart, Lord.”

He smiled back and chuckled , 

“I also know your head.”

Then He went on to explain, “You were told you have to get past the maze. I’ve already been through it and conquered it, now you can follow me, above it all. Just follow me closely, every step.”

I continue, to this day, to follow Christ as He leads me, not down inside the maze, not through the maze but across the top, above the maze where He walks. He is above it all.

He is leading me past this world of confusion to the other side.

Occasionally He has me hold His strong and mighty hand to reach down for one who is struggling down in the Maze. When they are pulled up they see that it was actually Christ who pulled them up and that we now share the same journey.


Let Him lift you up, pull you out, and set your feet on higher ground. Follow Him. He knows the way. He is The way.

The Holy Spirit laid this on my heart to share with others. I hope it helps clarify

God’s grace for you. ~Tom “beetle” Bailey

Another vision by William Booth below:

God is not a crutch, he is a full stretcher, can’t even limp into heaven without HIM God is not a crutch, he is a full stretcher, can’t even limp into heaven without HIM.

The original writing includes some videos at the end. If interested go to:

Go with God, beetle

Cruise Ships We’ve Been On

I don’t write a whole lot of blog posts about cruises we’ve been on because I hand write in my journals about them; but I do want to include this post to help me keep track and document.

We’ve been very blessed and even one of the results from my big scooter accident left me with a settlement that allowed us to do several things: pay doctor bills, get a new vehicle, take care of several other needs and…  take our very first cruise. From that point on we’ve been doing it regularly. We hope the doctors are wrong when it comes to my progression of Polynuropothy or regression of health; none-the-less we are traveling while I’m still able enough.

So far we’ve only been on Royal Caribbean Cruise Lines and at the bottom of this list I’ll continue to add & update which ships we have traveled on. 

Here they are:

  1. Vision Sept. 20-25, 2014
  2. Vision April 4-11, 2015
  3. Freedom Sept. 18-25, 2016
  4. Serenade Nov. 21-Dec. 2, 2016
  5. Brilliance Jan. 23-28, 2017
  6. Oasis Oct. 8-15, 2017
  7. Independence Dec. 2-7, 2017
  8. Empress March 3-8, 2018
  9. Enchantment Oct. 19-22, 2018
  10. Enchantment Oct. 22-26, 2018
  11. Serenade Dec. 10-21, 2018
  12. Enchantment Jan. 14-18, 2018
  13. Adventure Feb. 2-9, 2019


Say It With Music -“O Love That Wilt Not Let Me Go” Bryan Duncan arr.

Listen to the old hymn resung. Follow lyrics below”O Love That Will Not Let Me Go”

So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn’t hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn’t gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God’s chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ’s love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture: They kill us in cold blood because they hate you. We’re sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one. None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I’m absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us.

Romans 8:31‭-‬39 MSG

 God tells us,

“I don’t think the way you think. The way you work isn’t the way I work.” God ’s Decree. “For as the sky soars high above earth, so the way I work surpasses the way you work, and the way I think is beyond the way you think. Just as rain and snow descend from the skies and don’t go back until they’ve watered the earth, Doing their work of making things grow and blossom, producing seed for farmers and food for the hungry, So will the words that come out of my mouth not come back empty-handed. They’ll do the work I sent them to do, they’ll complete the assignment I gave them.

Isaiah 55:8‭-‬11 MSG

Holding On and Extending A Hand

Through many struggles we can hold on tight to our faith in what we can not see.

A picture is worth a 1,000 words so let me share a few picture & words.

I know life’s struggles are real; but I believe God is too.

I came to a point today that helped me see how, as important as my attempts to hold on to God is, He never lets go.

This was confirmed as i read the lyrics to the old hymn

Now listen to “Sweet Comfort Band” with their song “Hold On Tight”:

May this post be like a hand extended to you. I’m holding on to my faith in Christ & all He has done, all He does & all He is going to do.

Come on this hike with me, keep your faith anchored in Him and I’ll see you here, there or in the air.

Go with God. He won’t break up with you, beetle

Lyric to “Hold On Tight” We count our many tragedies

But still, life must go on
Waiting for what can’t be seen
Explanations try to find
Excuses for the pain
Oh, but they never change the way we feel, no

Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Don’t let go
Hold on tight

Quest for fame and fortune
You mught find a new frontier
We might last another year
But in or fast from cash and carry
We might marry into freedom
And find a faith that’s fresh and clear, yeah

Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Don’t let go
Hold on tight

Harmony and tragedy
Go often hand in hand
In times of ease our dreams are built
Upon the shifting sands
When time are hard our faith remains
To keep us in God’s hands

Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Don’t let go
Hold on tight



Who Do U Follow?

Think about it…Watch “Follow Me, Follow Me, Follow Me (PARODY SONG)” on YouTube

When Jesus saw the crowd around him, He  (Jesus, The Christ), instructed his disciples to cross to the other side of the lake. Then one of the teachers of religious law said to him, “Teacher, I will follow you wherever you go.” But Jesus replied, “Foxes have dens to live in, and birds have nests, but the Son of Man has no place even to lay his head.” Another of his disciples said, “Lord, first let me return home and bury my father.” But Jesus told him, “Follow me now. Let the spiritually dead bury their own dead. ”

Matthew 8:18‭-‬22 NLT