Alexx Puzzle

A picture is worth a thousand words.

May this PUZZLE speak for itself.

I wanted some of the pieces to come together and fit but that is not where they belonged. I had to search, do the boarder 1st, then find pieces of similar shading and lock them into place. I recognized Alexx’s eyes, our similarities and features that matched one another.

Slowly all the parts formed a recognizable picture.

There was a point near the end of completing this puzzle where I could not find the right pieces that filled Alexx’s heart; as I continued to work it all out I found out that some of the bright white pieces I was trying to place there were actually the parts that fit where my bright white heart was.

There is a lot to be learned, processed and accepted. I’m still working on this metaphorical puzzle of my son’s death.

One of the verses Alexx left at the scene of his suicide was: “Each heart knows its own bitterness, and no one else can fully share its joy.” Proverbs 14:10 NLT

God says, “The heart is hopelessly dark and deceitful, a puzzle that no one can figure out. But I, God , search the heart and examine the mind. I get to the heart of the human. I get to the root of things. I treat them as they really are, not as they pretend to be.” Jeremiah 17:9‭-‬10 MSG


God made my life complete when I placed all the pieces before him. When I got my act together, he gave me a fresh start.  Now I’m alert to God ’s ways; I don’t take God for granted. Every day I review the ways he works; I try not to miss a trick. I feel put back together, and I’m watching my step. God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes.  Psalm 18:20‭-‬24 MSG

Where do all the pieces fit? I’m looking at certain situations and circumstances in my past, present and future and I can’t currently see how all these pieces fit but I hold onto the hope that God knows and He will cause everything to fall into place & complete it all.

You see, it is like God’s inspired words tell us, “For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.                        1 Corinthians 13:12‭-‬13 NASB

*For a post on the verse Alexx circled (to be found at his suicide) go to -> No On Knows Another Person’s Heart (Alexx’s Suicide Verse).

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2 thoughts on “Alexx Puzzle

  1. Karen Dawson

    Thank you for sharing. Yes Tom it will take time & you may never fully understand. God loves you, and he loves Alex. That’s the important thing. I love you my friend In Christ, Karen

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