Although i work for The Salvation Army and i have a Capable Commanding Officer and although i attend Church (gather with other believers) there at The Salvation Army of St. Augustine, FL and have a “Pastor”; God is my Shepherd. God is truly my Commanding Officer and more.
As i “step” forward into what “seems like” a step back (needing to go onto a medical leave of absence) I am accepting those things i can not change and God is giving me serenity while I am to weak physically to change the things i can. I am gaining spiritual courage to change some things. Those things are in the Spiritual realm more than in the physical realm anyway. i am also gaining the wisdom to know the difference and although outwardly i am wasting away, inwardly i am renewed day by day (2nd Co. 4:16).
God alone is giving me the serenity, acceptance, strength, courage, wisdom and more to continue the fight, and this fight is not against flesh and blood, it is a Spiritual WAR i am willing to die for!
So, i am killing my old man (2nd Co. 5:17; Ro. 8:1-17; Ro. 12:2). and transforming into what God wants and something HE can use. I am listening to my commanding officer who is also a head surgeon and doing my best to follow His commands. HE is doing surgery on my Spiritual Spine. This surgery is not waiting on pre-op. clearance, it is happening right now as i type this and as someone is reading it. It is being done by The Chief Physician (<-Story in rough draft form).
HE is giving me a better back bone for HIM.
To do this, as i go thru this ‘process and procedure’:
- HE makes me Lie down.
- HE makes me retreat!
- He makes me fight and KEEP ON FIGHTING (<-Marching as to war)
Although no one may see me, or a few might see me, there is a cloud of witnesses surrounding me and i am running the race and fighting the good fight even while laying flat on my back or curled up in a ball of physical pain. (Hebrews 12:1-2, 12-13).
Outwardly i am falling apart, wasting away but inwardly i am renewed day by day by day (2nd Co. 4:16).
Tom “Bettle” Bailey
THE END, but don’t stop the music…
:::::::::for those still in the theater::::::::::
I was formerly just a drummer now i am just an Instrument, sometime a donkey, always a child of God.
If you’d like listen to this while you read the last few lines: